The past few months of my life since college graduation have been a lesson in failure. Failure of relationships, friendships, and – most taxingly – career. Specifically, I have spent the past ten years of my life shuttled from one pre-mapped path of success to another. I attended a college preparatory high school and followed that with a jaunt through a top-tier liberal arts college. In both of these spaces I was infused with optimism and certainty (at least as far as my future was concerned).
100+ job applications, one supremely disappointing interview, and one quickly-turning-long-term service industry job later, I am exhausted.
And from that, this blog is born.
the slowing is about giving myself space to think through the drastic disappointments and invigorating lessons I have faced in the past year. As you can imagine, I struggled with (and still do) a depression surrounding the rejection letters (How many? I lost count months ago) or – even worse – the silence. To cope I have developed (and keep tinkering with) habits and practices that have saved me. (For many of these practices, I am forever in debt to Leo at www.zenhabits.net. Thank you.)
So this is the story of a cum laude-achieving, I’ve-been-in-New-England-too-long wise ass turns depressed, nostalgic hermit turns (hopefully) happy, healthy, spunky young woman.