Enough with the depressing. Let me start talking about how I am thriving in this unexpected life I have.
To start, I bought a planner. Honestly, I didn’t need one when I bought it, because my life consisted solely of restaurant work. But I’ve dug my heels in here in my hometown. I’m unwilling to let “coming home” be seen as a failure. Because it isn’t. My life is dramatically different than it was in high school or even in college. After letting myself mope for a month or so, I started being proactive and researching things to make myself a part of. This is a never-ending process, but let me list off a few things I’ve gotten involved with.
Every Friday I work at a local farm for a few hours and in exchange I receive a CSA share. This small part of my life is quickly becoming what sustains me. I’m working in the dirt, learning a ton about farming, and spending time in the sun. Essentially, I’m doing a trial run for what I want the rest of my life to look like.
YMCA Volleyball League
In high school volleyball was my entire life. By the time I graduated I was so burnt out from regular season and club volleyball that I refused to play at college. And then I didn’t touch a volleyball for four years. My roommate (who was my setter on my high school team) forced me to an open gym with her recently. Thank god she did. I’ve fallen in love all over again.
I hate yoga. Or I thought I did. I hated it when I was in a fast-paced world where I wanted to efficiently work out my body. Now I got time for days. So my once-a-week yoga course is something to put in my planner.
That’s about all I got so far. But what I want to say is: Buy a planner. Pretend like you have a life. And eventually, you will. At least, that’s what I’m betting on.